That's right folks. People say everyone is put on this earth for a reason. Well I think I was put on this earth to suffer and be ignored by men and women alike. I was picked on in school and ocassionally I still to this day get someone snickering when I walk by in public. I have a horrible ugly face with 2 small scars from birth because the doctor hit my eye on my way out of the birth canal (mom didn't file malpractice suit) I have bad vision and a lazy eye so I must wear ugly, thick eyeglass lenses. Can't afford contacts. I have always been fat since 6 months old. I have huge football player calves and thunder thighs to boot. My old lady breasts droop really bad and have no shape. They never developed right because I started puberty too early and they developed drooped right from the start. My eyebrows don't match because I had a accident 7 years ago and the dr didn't stitch it up right. So now skin sags above my one eyebrow and I have missing eyebrow hair along the scarline. My head is flat in the back so I can never have a nice hairstyle. I have stretchmarks, ugly duck wide feet which forces me to wear a size 11 1/2 wide men's shoe. No heels for me. I have anxiety, depression, high blood pressure and I am 150 pounds overweight.I have been struggling with my weight since 1987.I don't have many friends and I am completely invisible to men. I have no life-no car-no reason to live at all. I am stuck in this boring town because of lack of finances. I am trying to change my weight, but alot of stuff I can't change. Like my eye problems and my face. Why would God put me on this earth to be cast aside like a leper. Does he enjoy seeing me suffer. The life expentancy rate will probably be in the 80's by the time i retire. Am I expected to live like this for the next 50 years? I wish he didn't give me used body parts. I wish I could trade my ugly body for a beautiful, attractive healthy one.that is your choice, not God's doing....
get up and get moving...diet and exercise now...all veggies will clear up many problems...walk and do something...There's nothing wrong with glasses, and no one should care what kind of car you drive. You should talk to a doctor about losing weight, because once you do you'll feel so much better about yourself. Maybe instead of blaming God, you can look to him for help. maybe if you focused on God rather than yourself and helped those that are more unfortunate than you....
You would realize how blessed you are. At least you can walk, talk, feed yourself, clothe yourself, work, travel... and dont have others that have to take care of you.
Grow up I can't help but question if this is real or not....?
However, if it is, there are some things you can do. I'm sure a plastic surgeon can help with the scarring you talk about. Contacts aren't that expensive and if your glasses bother you so much, you'll suck up the expense. And the weight? That has nothing to do with God. Start exercising and eating right and you'll feel a lot better about yourself.Stop believing in archaic fairy tales and you might just get somewhere in life. Eh, some people get flushed from the shallow side of the Gene Pool, dont worry hun, life should get better :/
Wow, I'm sorry. Hmm. Beer?Hello Emerald --
I have had a chronic illness for my entire adult life, I live in constant, intractable (that means "incurable") chronic pain which will only get worse as i get older and my condition worsens. I've been in and out of hospitals and wheelchairs my whole adult life; i've watched seasons come and go from my bedroom window.
I could tell you a lot more but i don't want to bore you. My point here is that i do understand a lot of what you're saying and feeling; I've been suicidal several times.
But i can also tell you that essentially, we both have two choices:
We can continue to feel sorry for ourselves and be miserable,
OR --
We can TAKE RESPONSIBILITY for our lives and our happiness, and make the changes that are necessary to have as fulfilling and happy a life as is possible for either of us.
No, neither of us will ever be beauty queens -- but then external beauty is fleeting, even beauty queens eventually lose their exernal attractiveness.
We can make whatever changes are possible to improve our appearance(s), so we have a bit more confidence and are able to interact with people a bit more comfortably.
But essentially, we both have to find ways to adjust to our limitations, and still make our lives worthwhile and meaningful. We CANNOT do that by feeling sorry for ourselves and quitting; we can only do that if we take responsbility for ourselves and our own happiness and fulfilment.
You need to sit yourself down and decide what you want out of life, what is the difference between the possible and the impossible, and how to begin pursuing the former, while coming to terms with the latter.
It's up to you. Do you really want to continue living as you are right now, or do you want to make a meaningful life for yourself?
If you take half of the energy you're spending now on feeling miserable, and instead, begin directing it toward exercising some creativity, commitment, determination, persistence, and such, to begin searching out resources, programs, people and opportunities that might be able to help --
And if you begin considering how you might discover, recognize, develop and use your talents, gifts and abililities toward blessing the lives of others and making your own life more of what you want --
You would be in a very different place, in just a year's time.
It's entirely up to you.
Let us know what you decide.
- And should you wish to discuss any of this futher, Please don't hesitate to email me -- Gaia_d@yahoo.com
Blessings and Good luck --
~Gaiaseriously No its not ok to feel that way about yourself that is sign of mental problems also so now you don't just have appearences wrong with you but now you also have mental problems that you need to sort out with yourself maybe go see a counciler or something...im thinking mental insanityTry doing it at 55!!A mother of a handicapped child prayed to God, "
I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary"
Its just a few years on the earth.God loves you a lot.Jesus christ wants to be your best friend.Accept him as your savior, then these worries will seem like a peck of dust for you.God wants your heart as a whole for him.
I'm glad I'm not you. I would have done shot up a school or something by now with all of that against me.try waring bright colors!damn, damn....It took me over 35 years to get to the point of being comfortable in my own body. Blaming God is a waste of brain cell activity, take it from me.30? so old :SChange the things you can.
Accept the things you can't.
That's just how it's going to be.
I didn't accept many things about myself until I accepted Christ. After I did, I focused more on God than myself. Realizing how much the God of the universe loves me changed my perspective after a few years.
Also, you might consider a personal trainer, or something. If you are unable to lose weight, I think it might be at least in part that you don't know how to do it. If something doesn't work, change the strategy. Dieting doesn't work. If you need a place to start, a really good e-book is called "Burn the Fat, Feed the Muscle". It helped me.I think you're putting too much on yourself. The thing is - work on one thing at a time. Since the weight is something YOU CAN CHANGE, start with that! Once you lose some weight, you WILL start to feel good about yourself & once that happens you can work out your other issues. There ARE men out there who will find you attractive when you start to feel good about yourself! All your negativity towards yourself are sending out BAD vibes and people pick up on that. Make a plan for yourself - maybe stash away $5-10 a week so that after you lose the weight you can GET OUT of your miserable town and get yourself situated somewhere where you can make more money and maybe get contacts and some surgery (if you MUST!)... The first thing you NEED to do starting TODAY is to get rid of your self-hate!! Do something good for yourself & your health and you will start to SHINE!! Good luck to you sweetie!! :) (please DO NOT blame God - everyone was put here to do GOOD... it's up to YOU to follow through!) Once you do feel good about YOU help others in the same situation!If you insist on making God responsible, you'll always feel helpless towards the situation.
God did not create you this way, you did. We are all responsible for our own lives, God has nothing to do with it. God is merely waiting for us to realize that we're responsible so we can start to find our way back to Him.
You need a new perspective on life because your current one is only going to bring you constant guilt.No, it's not normal to blame a material entity on an immaterial entity.
That's just common sense.I might not be able to help you with all your problems. But I can help you lose weight if you are interested. I am 36 and I weight 140 pounds, by choice. So I can really help you. The rest we can pray about together. email me at bonxious@rocketmail.comMaybe it's normal for some people, but I'd say it shouldn't be.
It appears that you need to speak to a professional. Please do. Blame or fame God does not care.If you want you can blame God
Rather you can curse Him too. But do not hate yourself. That is most important.
I want you to study Hellen Keller's autobiography 'my story'. You believe me, she was deaf, blind, and dumb. She became the world spokes person for the disabled.Do not loose heart. Let your eye brow droop;not your morale!we were put on this earth to learn life lessons,, i truly believe that we each chose the way we wanted to live life before we entered earth. YOU chose to be this way before you were even born, and now you need to figure out WHY you chose it, and WHAT you came here to accomplish. There is a reason for EVERYTHING in life, because YOU chose it. Now start brain storming and thinking what you can do to make a difference in life, even as an ugly duckling or whatever you think you may be. Maybe your lesson to learn in life is that looks dont matter, and maybe you should be going out and helping other young girls and boys learn that, so they dont grow up hating themself lilke you.#If you have any other info about this subject , Please add it free.# |
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