Is this depression or something else?

I think i feel like im living a dream...i cant really describe it. Nothing feels like it could possibly be real, and when i think it is real, i wish it werent. i wish i could just wake up for once and get back to the way things used to be and go back to the happy days. I feel hopeless like there is no purpose to me or anything in this world, and like im doomed to these days forever...

at least i think thats how i feel. =] i dont even know. i dont feel worthless or anything.

i dont know what to think because i real up a little on depression, and you know how sometimes that can like make you overreact on little nonexistant things? i just want to make sure that im not overreacting.

but none of the things above were affected by reading up on depression, except for the word hopeless, which i read and found that it fit me.

this may have been affected though, so i dont know if i would have noticed it: im not in the mood for my favorite sport in the world-swimming anymore, i try to avoid it whenever i can. im not interested in much, like homecoming, which my friends are trying to convince me to go to. im just not really interested at all.

i used to be really good at math, and thats changed all of a sudden. im struggling, i have a b, and im getting out of it because its just too much stress. im working so hard and its not paying off. i can memorize things pretty well, but when it comes to real life math applications, all of a sudden i cant relate things.

what do you think?

oh, and about 2 months ago i went through a one week period where i did think of suicide, and kind of a lot. it went away though. then when i studied like an insane person for my math test and got an 86 i got so upset and started crying and freaking out and seriously thought of you know, but i didnt and i never woould i was just thinking. i get scared of myself when i think like that. i would never do it. =/

Sounds like a mild case of Bipolar, which is a series of episodes that you go from happy to depressed( crying, happy, or other emotions). If this continues I would talk to a doctor, because this can lead to hallucinations which are very scary.

There are 3 basic reasons for depression.

1. You have suffered a loss. Depression is normal under this circumstance and should fade with time.

2. You are comparing yourself to others. You think you are "less than" in whatever arena and you feel bad about yourself, life, or choices.

3. You are endlessly visiting the "bad file"...all the memories that are painful to you instead of all the pleasant memories.

DRUGS will induce depression. Are you taking any? Are you smoking something? Drinking something? It could be a physical reaction to something you are exposing yourself to. Otherwise, it might be something in your brain and you need a cat scan.

I hope this answer has pointed you in the right direction. Get some help from someone who loves you!

If a B on a math test makes you contemplate suicide you're in for a harsh surprise when you enter the real world.

Are you experiencing any big life stresses that would cause you to detach, shut off, or stop interacting with your environment in order to handle the shock? I know that's what happens to me when I am overly stressed, emotionally distressed, or facing trauma. I shut down, and it feels like I am in a dream, and I cannot physically wake up until the trauma passes, and I can begin to heal.

This could also simply be a result from hormones being out of balance, and the way to break the cycle is to do things that make you feel alive. Excersise, climb a mountain, go to a concert, or simply experience life. Get out, do something, and break the mundane cycle of your life.

It could be depression, but if you excersise that will help by releasing chemicals into your body that will give you a boost. Hanging out with friends and distracting yourself may help as well. Take time to realize that you are still worth great value even if you are not perfect, and people still love you despite your flaws.

You may need to set some goals for yourself, begin to look to the future and dream. If you get stuck in the present without perspective of what your future could hold, you could become very hopeless. Dream, imagine, investigate, and explore. You are young, and the world is open to you.

Teenage years are difficult, and once they are over you will find your body will level out. Until then, all you can do is keep yourself healthy, and build a community of support and strength around you that will help you remain balanced through all the changes.

JESUS is the answer!!!!!

judging by your use of smiley faces, no
watch funny movies to help cheer you up
and listen to music
GET HELP
DONT JUMP DONT DO IT!

ok 1 if you are a teenager this is typical
i felt the same way aswell
it is not depression
it is teenage angst
dont dwell on it
i did and i nearly died
its ruining my best friend, who describes her life like you do
im going to say to you what i said to her, if you keep thinking about it, not thinking about it will be harder
so its ok to note your feelings
and you could possibly talk to somebody about seeing a therapist
just to talk
but please dont dwell on your issue

i really cant help you cause i experience the same thing...but i neva went to the point of suicidal thoughts i kinda love n loathe my life

sounds like depression and that you are in the middle of it, you explained lack of concentration,feeling hopeless,worrying and striving for perfection are all symptoms of depression.

See your doctor and print what you told up and give it to your doctor, it is very clear to understand.

It will be fine in the end you see,

Never give up for now even if you do nothing eles, make an appointment with your doctor very soon.

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